I’m a little lethargic today as I am dealing with severe menstrual cramps, bloating, and extreme changes in mood and body temperature. For the last 3 years I have had the luxury of not having my menses. After my daughter was born I had an IUD put in and for me that meant none of the monthly issues. In fact, I felt a lot like Blade of female gender- all of the strengths and none of the weaknesses.

But then right before my father-in-law died in May I began getting the baby-burn. I watched my first born change so quickly and began to mourn the loss of an era that we will never get back- her as a baby. Look at her. She was so tiny and everything was so new to her and to us.

Lately, she has been asking for a little sister. My husband informed me that she no longer wants to be “Mya”. She wants to be a “Big Sister”. He figured out that to her “Mya” is just another stage- like baby, big girl, Mya, big sister. It’s adorable. She is feeling the baby-burn too.

A few weeks ago I had my IUD removed- a first step towards reviving my ability to reproduce. With it came so much more. I still want to get pregnant, don’t get me wrong. But, man am  I a mess. At this rate sex will never happen again because there is just no way that I want to be touched. I am relearning everything about my body- like the hormonal surges and the temporary emotional distress. I used to know my cycle so well and now I find my self wondering what the heck is going on.

The funny thing is that my husband is all ready for me… Continue reading →