You would have been 37 today and for reasons still unknown you were taken from us just 9 days after you turned 36. Life has been so hard since then. I tried to be strong- to keep Jaida and Kayla together to ease the pain that they were feeling. I have endured criticism from many- both to my face and behind my back- for things that were beyond my control and even now I am sure that people are whispering about how I am not doing what I should to make sure that everyone is OK. But, and it has taken most of the year for me to realize this, none of that matters because when it comes right down to it, no one can ever truly understand the bond between sisters.

You and Caroline are the first friends I ever knew. You were my protectors when life was scary and our bond was so much stronger than the future arguments that would tear us all apart for so many years. We are survivors. Foster parents, orphanages, adoption, daddy’s death…. Hell, we survived Momma Kennedy and her strict parenting! We were always there for eachother even if that meant not being there at all.

No one can ever truly understand that bond and no one can take that away.

I miss you. I miss the times that we shared- our dance routines, hair and makeup lessons, sneaking out to Skate Key and the Fever and your advice on how to deal with our mother. I miss your smile and your willingness to help everyone- even those who did nothing but take advantage of you. I miss your passion to live and your hot temper. I miss the phone calls and our talks about sex and all the things that… Continue reading →

In Loving Memory of Samantha Michelle
Born too Soon at 19.5 weeks
February 22, 2003

I can’t put into words. We were not close as adults, but the pain is still great.