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It’s funny how things snap into perspective so easily when your child looks at you and says, “I love you.”
I have known for a long time that I need to lose weight. Two-hundred and ten pounds of weight. I won’t try to figure out how I let this happen because the fact is that it did happen. What I am focusing on is losing it because that is what matters.
I was recently diagnosed with an Overactive Thyroid. A lot of people with this disorder lose weight but that has not been the case for me. However, my heart rate is elevated, my metabolism is slowed, and I am a nervous wreck because now more than ever I realize that my health is at stake.
So, I rejoined PeerTrainer.com today after talking about it with my friend Renee who is also on a journey to lose weight. We decided to motivate each other and I remembered having some success with PeerTrainer. I also signed up for the PeerTrainer “Point of no Return” Weight Loss Program. It is sort of a mental boot camp that provides the tools needed to help lose and maintain weight loss. I admit that I need all the help that I can get.
I am also using the EA Active/EA More Active for the Wii. I need a lot more physical activity in my everyday life. Working from home in front of the computer is not helping me lose weight so, I have to change that. I am also going to be using Jillian Michaels, Leslie Sansone, and Exercise TV. My family has also decided to add a dog to out mix so that we can get more time in outdoors. Andrew and I had 2 dogs years ago before the little one was born and I had a pretty set walking routine. I know that having a dog will increase not only my physical activity but my daughter’s as well.
Unfortunately, my doctor has limited my cardio exertion until after a round of tests regarding my thyroid. Until I get the OK I am going to focus on my diet and strength training. I need to boost my metabolism because I don’t eat enough. Since i truly enjoy cooking a am looking for a meal plan that I can use for my entire family. My hubby and I both need to lose weight and my daughter needs to learn healthy eating habits.
I have a lot to do but for the first time in a very long time I know that I can do it!
Went to the nutritionist. Another attempt to get my weight under control. She believes that I am insulin resistant and sent me to the Endocrinologist. I also have to have my thyroid checked. Those appointments are forth coming. After going over what I eat with her, she made me realize a few things:
- I do not eat enough. I barely taking in 1000 calories a day and because of this my metabolism is stalled.
- I do not eat enough protein. I really don’t like meat so I avoid it at all costs.
- I need to work on building muscle as opposed to cardio only.
I was actually relieved to hear these things as they seem fixable. She put me on a diet– I have to eat tuna for breakfast and set an alarm clock to remind me to eat every 4 hours. I am making a conscious effort to follow her guidelines in terms of eating. As far as working out goes, she wants me to build muscle. I am starting that tomorrow as I have not been feeling well all week.
My husband and I have decided to give up dairy too. My daughter — 3 — suffers from bloating and flatulence every time she drinks milk of eats ice cream so rather than put her through this, we are giving it up. I’m feeling really good about this decisions as the benefits of a diary-free diet extends far beyond just bloating. We — both my daughter and I — suffer from allergies and asthma and dairy is a known agitator of both.
In other news, I also had my IUD removed and the GYN suggested that I wait until after I have Gastric Bypass (did I mention that I wanted to have that) to get pregnant. I agree, but the IUD was making me freak out every month. I am going to focus on losing weight by making serious lifestyle changes and if I get pregnant, so be it. It will work out.
Maybe I am actually afraid to be successful at weight loss. It seems to me that if I truly wanted to lose weight, I would just jump on it, right? Yet, as heartfelt as my previous entries were, I have fallen back into some behaviors that have helped to keep me fat. That’s part of the reason that I have not been blogging here. I find it much easier to lie to myself when I am not writing things out.
But yesterday, I had a realization after finding out that a friend’s husband ended up in the hospital and in a 4 day coma– the result of a diabetic attack which may have been avoided if he just took better care of him self. To boot, I amvery active in Go Red, and am very fearful that the extra two people that I am carrying is way too much for my heart. Simply put, I don’t want to die. I don’t want to die because I have too much to live for. Sorry for the cliche.
One of the problems that I have is eating regularly and eating well. I KNOW what I should be eating, more or less, but I don’t know how to determine portion size, and better yet, I don’t know go grocery shopping on a regular basis which leads me to order out a lot. we only have one car so when my hubby is at work, I am stuck in the house because there are no stores in walking distance and taking the bus with a toddler and groceries is just not doable.
I have been looking into home-delivery meal plans. I am really liking Fresh Dining. It seems like a great plan, but it is so expensive up front. Granted, I probably spend more than that on groceries and eating out, but it is just so expensive up front. I do know it’s worth it in long run– especially if I lose weight and start getting healthy.
So I have plan. I will share more later.