I wanted to post tonight before the craziness of New Year’s Eve starts. I have so much to be thankful for and even more to look forward to, so I figured this blog should serve a greater purpose. OK, two greater purposes.
Purpose Number One: Thank You: I need to send out a great big THANK YOU to my Motime friends. You all have been so supportive even when, due to various moody posts, I did not deserve it (C4F that is especially meant for you). My life has always been a roller coaster ride, and for me, the roller-coaster-fearer, that has not been a good thing. However, the last few ups and downs have been particularily bearable because I know that no matter how whiny, bitchy, and irrational I am, you will always support me. I am so thankful for that.
Purpose Number Two: New Outlook: I also need to make myself a promise. For a while my blog posts have been morbid and negative, but that is going to change. Fear has a way of blackening every day no matter what may happen, and I have been blinded by fear for a while. But no more. I am not afraid anymore because I know that whatever happens I have a great support system determined to help me make it through. With that said, I have decided to look at the glass as half full rather than half empty. My daughter will be given the opportunities and the love from a mother who iis determined to give her the best life possible. My daughter, despite the inevitable mistakes that she and I will both make, will know that her parents’s love is unconditional. And, my daughter, despite all the annoyances of my pregnancy, will be the apple of my eye for eternity.
Now, with that said, I am ready to begin the new year. I love New Year’s Day because it signifies a chance to begin again. A chance to rethink the path that we are following. So, to all of my Motime friends, Happy New Year’s. Please try to bbegin it with positive, hopeful thoughts.
See ya in 2006!
